Becoming an adult is definitely not an easy task. So many things to worry about, so much stress, it's amazing that many people are not declared crazy. You have to worry about paying bills, finding a job, maintaining your health.

Sometimes you are held accountable for things that are not necessarily your fault. Although adulthood is a sign of separating yourself from your parents, I find myself getting caught in situations that others want to blame my mother, but instead punish me. Selling land--people don't trust my mom. My non-existent relationship with my father--because of difficulties with my parents, I didn't have a choice or say in the matter.

I want to become an adult, but people still think of me as a 5 year old indulged child, who only wants food , money, but not love. Listen, I would prefer to have no material possession from you, if only you would love me for who I am! It would stop me immensely from being such a people pleaser!

Again, why am I so insistent of growing up? I know a part of it is because I don't have a choice, but there are days when I would just prefer to stay home and read books non-stop. I wish I was 4 years old and play in my backyard in Pennsylvania, with no responsibilities and worries in my life.

Life was so simpler then...